IS THAT REALLY WHAT YOU WANT?

Marie Audemard

kisses on my back
you grab my waist
i feel so safe
you have seen all of it
a thousand times
you know all the moans
where i like to be touched
how to kiss my lips
what to say to drive me insane
you know it all

it still haunts me
and makes every experience painful
ever since
i met safety in your arms
i forgot it existed elsewhere

was it love?
i wonder, in bed
feeling awful
it didn’t feel like you once again
‘is that really what you want?’
but maybe one day
i will stop looking for you